Bed Weather

          Humans, as we are created always seeking, can never be contented. One thing is for sure: Change is constant and it is inevitable. There are instances that even if we have all the things we needed and wanted, there will always be something missing. And we, as skeptics, continue ti look for them even if we don't actually know what or where they are.

          Why am i talking about this? Simple because i have nothing to do (since classes are suspended) and there are so many things running on my mind. I have a feeling that i've been over-thinking again and the only remedy to get over this kind of situation is to write (even if some of the things i'm saying are complete nonsense utters).

          Talk about writing, i was asked to make an article for our department's newspaper/magazine: The Mirepoix Pub.But somehow, I cant find a way to start it. Maybe because i'm not entirely interested with the topics they gave me (which were our Skills Summit 2012 and The Kusina Master Competition where two students from our course won), or i'm just too lazy and procrastinating. But really, i need to come up with something! If my article gets published, i'll be exempted in our case study for one of my major subjects. I mean, c'mon?! One article is equal to one manuscript of information overlooooad! O.o I need to start as soon as possible.

          And so, enough of my nonsense rants. I'll just enjoy this bed weather with a Game of Thrones marathon and some popcorn. Bye! :)

Love Is All About Adventure

Where to go? Whenever he and I are together, we tend to go to places randomly, and sometimes unintentionally. J

1. MALLS ARE NUMBER ONE.

          Our most usual place to sit, eat and talk is the Gateway Mall Food Court. Why? Because the chairs are oh-so comfortable. J We'd stay there for hours with food and drinks brought from the grocery.

Air conditioned. Chairs. Tables. Food. Drinks. Need anything more?

          SM City North Edsa is the second option. But normally, we'd go there if we're to watch a movie or eat at some fancy restaurant, only because they are so many to choose from.

   

We'd stroll from place to place... To where our feet would lead us. J

2. WE ALSO HAVE A THING FOR HISTORICAL PLACES.

          We've been to Rizal Park in Luneta where we'd walk and wait for the dancing fountain. They're really amazing, especially at night where you can see the colorful lights.

You can never go wrong with parks. J

          Another one is the Quezon Memorial Circle. Before, we go there to practice flairtending. But now, we’d sit on the benches and watch joggers pass by, groups of teens playing sports and families having picnic.

 

I miss flairtending. :|

          And the most memorable one is Intramuros. We went there for the sake of our Rizal subject. We visited the San Agustin Church, the Rizal Shrine and Fort Santiago. Why memorable? Not because it is a historical landmark, but because it is where we became officially in a relationship. J

These are all me because he likes to take the picture... Not to be in the picture.

3. WHAT’S MORE TO SEE?

          There are lots of places we'd like to see and explore. As of now, we plan on going to museums, theaters and parks. They're not the most likely places for dates, but we're kind of a weird couple… So be it. J

He's a Keeper

Simple gestures and acts of love and thoughtfulness is something that I admire about him.

• He’s always there to give me things I don't even ask.
• He watches over me even when there are instances I don't feel that he’s physically around.
• He opens an umbrella for me even if the sun’s heat is not too hot or the rain pouring hard.
• He holds my hand and waist when we walk just to make sure that I don’t trip and fall because of my inborn clumsiness.
• He makes and brings me lunch to school (even though he doesn't have classes) because he knows that I eat lunch later than 2:00PM because of my class schedule.
• He pinches my arms, lips and cheeks because he loves making them red even if he knows that it sometimes annoys me.
• He often talks or messages me in Jejemon language even if he knows that I totally hate it.
• He crushes my hands so hard (they feel like breaking) but he doesn't care and kisses them after.
• He likes to smell and kiss my hands which I find a little weird.
• He messages me every morning and every night even if he knows that I won't reply (usually, it’s either I'm asleep or has no load).
• He always asks how my day was even if he knows where I have been or what I've been doing.
• He asks me random, nonsense, humorous questions such as, “Ilang butas ang meron sa Skyflakes?”
• He stares at me when I eat because he finds it cute.
• He takes tons of pictures of me without me knowing (stalker alert!).
• He waits for my classes to finish just so we could go home together.
• And he never fails to make me smile and laugh whether I'm in a good or bad mood.

These simple things might look and sound stupid to others, but for me… They're everything. He makes me feel very loved, happy and appreciated.

And for the best boyfriend-bestfriend in the world...

I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH, BES. :”>
Foreverrr and alwaysss. <3

Just Sorry.

          Hmmm, how to start? Yes, I have read what you wrote and I completely understand how you feel. You may have written it in a way that it wouldn't sound or look like you're saying it directly to me, but i know what you're trying to tell or let me know.

          I'm sorry if things didn't work out between the two of you. I'm sorry if you felt like he left or turned his back on you for someone like me. And i'm sorry if you are hurt, sad or crying over what has happened. I never meant to intrude or break him apart from you. But to state a fact, even before he and I became close, he already felt that there was nothing to hope or wait for..He may not be my first boyfriend, but he makes me really happy.

          The reason why I'm saying that i completely understand you is because i have felt the same thing before. That feeling that you love a person who is in love with someone else. Yes, i've been hurt before and the process of moving on kills, not physically, but emotionally and spiritually. It makes you think of things like not being good enough, the things you've done to make him leave, or simply just feeling alone because your heart is breaking and it's hopeless and no one will understand what you're going through. It's hard, but eventually it will pass. You may forgive, but i know you won't forget.

          I may not be in the position to say anything, but i didn't mean to hurt you. I know that you have blocked us from Facebook, and it's okay. It's your choice anyway. I also know that you have friends who look after us and know every detail of your side of the story, because i have received new followers. But just so you know, i have tried to make him talk to you to settle things, but he insists that you're mad and there's no point of trying to sort things out.

          You have the right to be mad. You have the right to be angry. You have the right to be upset. And you also have the right to be bitter. I don't mean to sound negative, but that's what i think you are when i read your blogs. Yes, i'm a fan of your writing. I find the things you write about very interesting. In fact, i envy you, because you write very well.

          Anyway, you may find the things i'm writing stupid, mean and heartbreaking, but i'm just expressing what i feel. Like you said, it's a free country. If you get hurt from what you're seeing or reading, then just simply stop. No one's forcing you to know everything about him and me anyway. It will always be your choice. But just a piece of advice, clinging to the past won't help you move on. It will just keep everything worse because you still hold on to something that's no longer worth holding to. So, learn to let go. The process may be long, but for sure all these things will lead you to something good and more than what you actually deserve or hope for. God has plans for everyone. So once again, i'm really sorry.

Worth A Thousand Words? Or More?

WHAT'S THE BUZZ?

          Lately, this picture had been the talk of our friends, classmates, schoolmates, and even professors. Seriously, what's wrong with this? People had been asking me and my close friend if we are together like boyfriend-girlfriend. Honestly, do we look like we are in this??? O.o

          The truth is, we're not. He and I are just very close friends. We treat each other in a special way, but no strings attached. But what makes me wonder is... Why does everyone make this picture such a big deal? Obviously, it made a huge hit on Facebook and people suddenly asks and teases us. Even those whom I haven't talked to ever since approached and asked. There's not one day that I wasn't teased to him. Sometimes I just want to say "we're together" even if we're not just to make them stop.

          But despite of all these recent issues and happenings, i'm very much happy. My studies are doing great, my condition's becoming better, i have opportunities in line, and i have a bestfriend (the guy in the picture) who's always there for me. :)

I just hope everything goes well in the coming days, weeks and years.:)

Lucky I'm In Love With My Bestfriend

          There are times that when I feel so much happiness, I tend to write in the most crappy way. So now, I'd say sorry before anything else. If there'd be such grammatical errors, it only means that I'm too overwhelmed writing that part. ;))

June 10, 2013

          It was raining. Just what I wanted. :) A close friend and I decided to meet up for the first time to watch a movie and eat out. Our plan was to meet at Gateway Mall around 10am, then go together to SM City North Edsa, (Because I didn't know how to commute going there.) for the movie. We kinda went mall-hopping. Haha. =)) Anyway, the moment I saw him, all I wanted was to reach out and hug him so tight. And so did he. :) It lasted for only about 3 to 5 seconds, but the feeling lasted like forever. :) I missed him terribly. I don't know why. Unexplainable is some way. But yeah. :"> He was kinda tired from his trip going to Gateway Mall. FYI, he went all the way from Caloocan and his trip took him almost two hours because of the traffic and the rain as well. :| So, we decided to sit for a while at the food court. We chat, laugh, and stare at each other. (Weird, huh?) But we're happy. :)

          At around 12nn, we finally went off to SM City North Edsa. We took the bus. He told me some things he and his friends do whenever riding the bus. How they trick the ticket officer which result to them not paying for the fare; how they offer seats to ladies or old people who happen to get on the bus just when every seat was already taken, and so much more. He has this way of telling stories like you're actually in it. And I love it when he never ran out of things to tell or say. :))

          We arrived at SM North and the first thing we did was look for a place to eat, because he's hungry already. We walked and walked and walked. And finally, he decided to eat at Tokyo Tokyo. Honestly, I wasn't hungry yet during that time, but he ordered a lot. I kinda felt guilty 'coz i didn't eat much. And it was such a waste for my part. He did finish his, but mine looked like only half was eaten. :|

          So anyway, after we ate, we went to the movies. We watched Bangkok Haunted 4. Yes, a horror film. Why? Coz we had a dare. =)) Hahaha. :)) Well, the movie wasn't scary at all, but there were parts where you'd really wince because of the sound effects. And whenever i get creeped out, i'd hit him in the arm. Hahaha. =)) Poor arm. He might have got marks because of my slaps. XD We did enjoy it, but we regret watching it. Waste of money. Should have watched "Now You See Me".

          Qaulity time! We went around the mall with no particular place to go to. Just walked and walked and walked.Talked and talked and talked. I had so much fun with him. I wanted the day not to last. But sadly, all good things come to an end. :( We rode the bus again going back to Gateway Mall and he walked me to the terminal where I'd take the jeepney going home. Before I left, I gave him something. I hope he liked it. :)

          And so, future plans are yet to come. :)) I'm just so happy. :) I'd like to thank him for taking me out. It was such a date to remember.

THANK YOU, BES. :">

You know how lucky I am to have you. <3

Your Love Is Everything

          Despite all the problems and changes I have had, God continues to bless me with so much more. It is definitely true what everyone says. He's always good. He doesn't ignore or abandon us. He always has the time to listen to all of our prayers. He may not answer them right away, but for sure He has plans. He always does. We just have to wait for the moment to come, when the time is right. I've never been this thankful all my life. Maybe because I've been thinking, what have I done so good and rewarding that I deserve all these? Overwhelming happiness, unconditional love, strong family, great friends and fulfilled contentment. What more could I ask for? All together, everything's just so perfect.

THANK YOU LORD... JUST FOR LOVING ME. :)