Just Sorry.

          Hmmm, how to start? Yes, I have read what you wrote and I completely understand how you feel. You may have written it in a way that it wouldn't sound or look like you're saying it directly to me, but i know what you're trying to tell or let me know.

          I'm sorry if things didn't work out between the two of you. I'm sorry if you felt like he left or turned his back on you for someone like me. And i'm sorry if you are hurt, sad or crying over what has happened. I never meant to intrude or break him apart from you. But to state a fact, even before he and I became close, he already felt that there was nothing to hope or wait for..He may not be my first boyfriend, but he makes me really happy.

          The reason why I'm saying that i completely understand you is because i have felt the same thing before. That feeling that you love a person who is in love with someone else. Yes, i've been hurt before and the process of moving on kills, not physically, but emotionally and spiritually. It makes you think of things like not being good enough, the things you've done to make him leave, or simply just feeling alone because your heart is breaking and it's hopeless and no one will understand what you're going through. It's hard, but eventually it will pass. You may forgive, but i know you won't forget.

          I may not be in the position to say anything, but i didn't mean to hurt you. I know that you have blocked us from Facebook, and it's okay. It's your choice anyway. I also know that you have friends who look after us and know every detail of your side of the story, because i have received new followers. But just so you know, i have tried to make him talk to you to settle things, but he insists that you're mad and there's no point of trying to sort things out.

          You have the right to be mad. You have the right to be angry. You have the right to be upset. And you also have the right to be bitter. I don't mean to sound negative, but that's what i think you are when i read your blogs. Yes, i'm a fan of your writing. I find the things you write about very interesting. In fact, i envy you, because you write very well.

          Anyway, you may find the things i'm writing stupid, mean and heartbreaking, but i'm just expressing what i feel. Like you said, it's a free country. If you get hurt from what you're seeing or reading, then just simply stop. No one's forcing you to know everything about him and me anyway. It will always be your choice. But just a piece of advice, clinging to the past won't help you move on. It will just keep everything worse because you still hold on to something that's no longer worth holding to. So, learn to let go. The process may be long, but for sure all these things will lead you to something good and more than what you actually deserve or hope for. God has plans for everyone. So once again, i'm really sorry.