The Sad Truth

Relationships fall and whither because eventually, someone stops trying and it doesn't feel the same. The first couple of months or even years may be the best thing you ever wished for, but eventually, someone loses feelings, gets too busy, or doesn't even bother to try.

You know why?

Because they're comfortable.

The beginning is all about the chase. Can you keep up? If you can, then you'll get the hang of it and then you won't want to try anymore. You aren't afraid to lose them because they're yours. Arguing leads to fighting and it just gets worse from there.

It all flashes by so fast. Don't take anything or anyone for granted. So, cherish what you have.

How About a Cup af Tea?

          Good conversations start at one point. There are numerous topics to talk about, but only a few interests both sides of the party. That's where common thoughts go. I mean, you wouldn't consider something interesting if it's not worth talking, right? It may start from a question, which leads to an answer, resulting to another question, which needs another answer. Generally speaking, great conversations could last for long hours. It's a never-ending cycle.

What's the point of writing this?

Perhaps, it's the thought of appreciating good talks. :) Which i'm practically enjoying at the moment. :))

Music is Love

Isn't it sweet when someone learns your favorite song and play it just for you? <3

          It took me by surprise. A friend of mine asked me to call him saying he's playing the piano at that moment. At first, i was hesitant because it's the first time i'm going to call him. Ever since we knew and talked to each other, it has always been through text or Facebook. Virtual closeness. Right. :)) Maybe, the reason why i didn't want to make the phone call in the first place was because i was thinking about being awkward. :| As i was on the phone, i was waiting for him to say hello, but nothing. Suddenly, the piano played. And in that moment, i only knew one thing. :"> [No need to emphasize. I'm not quite sure how to put them in words.] Haha. =)) And yeah, i was smiling the whole time. :)

          I find it very unusual for someone to do something like that. But it was great. :) No, it wasn't great... It was  something MORE than great. :) If ever he gets to read this post, i'd like to thank him for what he did. He made me feel very special. And i hope, i could get to listen more of his music. :)

The song was "Secrets" by One Republic. But my favorite version was the cover made by Jayesslee.

Here's the link. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y9OVYXRzB6U

Listen to his piano cover here. :D

https://soundcloud.com/coffee-na-si-milo/secrets-of-one-re

Dash and Lily's Book of Dares - Rachel Cohn and David Levithan

          It was indeed an adventure. A well thought story. A smart one. :) Who would have thought dares would give you a happily ever after? ;) Must read. :D

Whenever I went, I was at the wrong end of the stampede. No word is too grand or too infinitesimal to be considered. I want to believe that, despite all the evidence to the contrary, there is reason to hope. All this hoping for something or someone that’s maybe hopeless. I want to believe there is a somebody out there just for me. I want to believe that I exist to be there for that somebody. Prayer or not. I want o believe that, despite all evidence to the contrary, it is possible for anyone to find that one special person. We believe in the wrong things. That’s what frustrates me the most. Not the lack of belief, but the belief in the wrong things. You want meaning? Well, the meanings are out there. We’re just so damn good at reading them wrong. I don’t think the meaning is something that can be explained. You have to understand it on your own. I think we can find the truths that live behind our words. It is much harder to lie to someone’s face. But, it is also much harder to tell the truth to someone’s face. It’s hard to answer a question you haven’t been asked. It’s hard to show you tried unless you end up succeeding. We were people. And people had ways of finding each other. It was one of those moments when you feel the future so much that it humbles the present. You should never wish for wishful thinking. Wasn’t reality bound to be disappointing? It’s moments like this, when you need someone the most, that your world seems smallest. That’s the luxury of being a lout – you get to be selective about when you care and when you don’t. The rest of us get stuck when your care goes shallow. I’m told there’s no going back. So I’m choosing forward. Why is it so much easier to talk to a stranger? Why do we feel we need that disconnect in order to connect? We are reading the stories of our lives as though we were in it, as though we had written it. I suspected that when something was a beginning and an ending at the same time, that meant it could only exist in the present. Fate has a strange way of making plans. A dream deferred is a dream denied.

Every Day - David Levithan

This book is really something. :) Although i did hope for a different ending. :| These are the lines that i liked. :D After a while, you have to be at peace with the fact that you simply are. There is no way to know why. You can have theories, but there will never be proof. We all contain mysteries, especially when seen from the inside. Beneath every peripheral girl is a central truth. A sound waiting to be a word. We all want everything to be okay. We don’t even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough. Simple and complicated, as most true things are. The Unwarranted Devotion. Putting up with the fear of being with the wrong person because you can’t deal with the fear of being alone. The hope tinged with doubt, and the doubt tinged with hope. She has been hanging on to the hope of him for so long that she doesn’t realize there isn’t anything left to hope for. People take love’s continuity for granted, just as they take their body’s continuity for granted. They don’t realize that the best thing about love is its regular presence. Once you can establish that, it’s an added foundation to your life. But if you cannot have that regular presence, you only have the one foundation to support you, always. The sound of words as they’re said is always different from the sound they make when they’re heard, because the speaker hears some of the sound from the inside. I am learning that a life isn’t real unless someone else knows its reality. Because what’s the point of something virtual if it doesn’t end up being real? This is what love does: It makes you want to rewrite the world. It makes you want to choose the characters, build the scenery, guide the plot. The person you love sits across from you, and you want to do everything in your power to make it possible, endlessly possible. And when it’s just the two of you, alone in a room, you can pretend that this is how it is; this is how it will be. I don’t want to throw everything away for something uncertain. There are so many explanations I can leave unsaid. There will always be more questions. Every answer leads to more questions. The only way to survive is to let some of them go. If you want to live within the definition of your own truth, you have to choose to go through the initially painful and ultimately comforting process of finding it. I wanted love to conquer all. But love can’t conquer anything. It can’t do anything on its own. It relies on us to do the conquering on its behalf. When first love ends, most people eventually know there will be more to come. They are not through with love. Love is not through with them. It will never be the same as the first, but it will be better in different ways.

Why Worry?

          Today, i felt it again. You know that feeling when suddenly you're nervous and you're gasping for air and your heart beats like a wild car motor and your mind feels like it's going to explode and you can't sleep or even close your eyes?

The Fault in Our Stars - John Green

          As a habit, i tend to jot down lines from books i read. For this one, i find the story really moving. However, after reading it, it somehow felt short. I just think the story isn't finished yet.

Anyway, these are the line that i liked. :)

I fear oblivion. I can be pretty blind to other people’s feelings.

I’m trying to observe young love in its many-splendored awkwardness.

From hideous romance to prentious fiction to poetry.

There were always more bad guys to kill and more good guys to save. New wars started even before the old ones are won. It was exciting to live again in an infinite fiction.

That’s the thing about pain… It demands to be felt.

I‘m in love with you, and I‘m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I‘m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we‘re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we‘ll ever have, and I am in love with you.

I think forever is an incorrect concept. You are an incorrect concept.

The world is not a wish-granting factory.

Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.

It‘s hard as hell to hold on to your dignity when the risen sun is too bright in your losing eyes.

Writing does not resurrect. It buries.

Pain is like fabric: The stronger it is, the more it‘s worth .

Grief does not change you. It reveals you.

Almost everyone is obsessed with leaving a mark upon the world. Bequeathing a legacy. Outlasting death. We all want to be remembered. I do, too. That‘s what bothers me most, is being another unremembered casualty in the ancient and inglorious war against disease.

I want to leave a mark.