Intense

          So, my brother's girlfriend, Kaye, came to visit him today. I was on the computer writing, as usual, and they were talking while watching tv. Kuya excused himself. While he was gone, Kaye asked me if she can show me something. So i let her use my netbook. She opened Kuya's Facebook account and clicked an old conversation dated year 2012. She told me, "Basahin mo mula simula ah? Wag ka munang magsasalita or magrereact hanggang di mo natatapos." And so i did. It was a conversation between Kuya and some random girl she knew on Facebook. Based on the dates, the conversation  lasted for almost a year, which Kaye traced were the times when their relationship was somehow shaky and almost falling apart.

          After i read through the whole conversation, Kaye asked me. "So... Ano naramdaman mo after mong mabasa?" I didn't know what to say. All i did was shook my head and shrug.

          Honestly, i know that Kaye was hurt. Maybe, the reason why she showed it to me was because she wants to know what or how to feel about it, if we have the same opinion. But for me, reading all those lies Kuya said while flirting with someone he don't actually know, and telling her things that aren't true, is like a punch in the face.

WHAT HAPPENED TO BEING HONEST? TO BEING FAITHFUL? TO LOVE?

          I know that Kuya has his reasons. Maybe, he wasn't really him during those times and he completely forgot about  certain things considering Kaye. Of all the girlfriends Kuya had, i'm pretty sure that Kaye has been the one who influenced most of the good things in him. I mean, we're Catholic. But because of Kaye, Kuya was willing to follow the Christian outlook. He no longer go to church with us. Instead, he goes with Kaye. Also, he's been reading the bible more often than i can remember and other self-realization books which Kaye's church offer. God was the center of their relationship. That's what he told me. And for my parents, they don't mind if Kuya changes his religion as long as he still believes in God, whether it's in the form of other outlook.

          I just hope that Kuya realizes what he has done. I mean, Kaye is a great girl. She's nice, funny, understanding, God-fearing and always there to forgive my brother. I want her to be the one for him. I know that Kuya will be forever loved. He just have realize that Kaye is a keeper and i know he will be happy with her.

          So... about the title. "INTENSE". That sums up everything that happened today. I was in the same room with Kuya and Kaye when everything broke down. Kaye was crying confessing her fears, troubles and doubts and Kuya was listening and trying to explain his part. And me? I was just listening, scared, thinking that something worse might happen. So i lay down. And you know what happened next???

I FELL ASLEEP. -_____-

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. =))